I almost celebrated a full 2 weeks of feeling AMAZING. I had a follow up appointment with my doc on Friday. She says I need to really watch the color changing hands. Apparently, the lack of blood flow can cause nerve damage. I wear two pairs of socks usually, she said it's not good enough...so I bought special diabetic socks at freakin $10 a pair. I don't feel awful, I'm just feeling discouraged. I sometimes am afraid to enjoy things, because I don't know how it might make me feel physically. I need to stop living in this kind of fear.
On Thursday, I was having some chest pain and a fluttery feeling in my chest. I've been training a new girl at work how to do EKG's, so I had her do one on me. As soon as she touched my chest to place the leads, I felt pain. Instantly, I knew what it was. Every so often, my costochondritis flares up. It's inflammation in the ribs and hurts to the touch. Normally, I use colchicine to help relive the pain and inflammation. I found out from the pharmacy that it's no longer available. But, a new and MORE expensive medication is. No thank you. Waiting to hear back from doc to see what else is out there.
I spent the night at Mom's last night. It's always nice relaxing with family. We made dinner together and watched a movie. We got to church a little early, so we sat in the cafe and drank our coffee. I lifted my right hand to take a drink, and my hand had the shakes....like quivering. It was strange. Mom noticed it too. So, I tried to brush it off and just use my left hand. I hate people noticing things like that, or me in pain. We met some family for breakfast after church. I used my left hand to eat because I was afraid of it happening again and people noticing.
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