It's Raining, It's Pouring...But I Have A Electric Blanket.

I'm still in pain from yesterdays gym mistake. I know I shouldn't have tried running. I did this to myself. I just wanted to know if I could do it. It just sucks because I know I could lose weight so much faster that way, if only I were able to.

I've lived with my family for the past year. They really helped me through a couple surgeries. But, sometimes, I feel like I need to remind them that I have arthritis. Everyone seems so surprised when I have a good day or two, then I'm hurting. It's like, where did that come from. Why are you hurting? Maybe you should call your doctor. I laugh sometimes, because I'm so used to the disease. I often feel like they should be too.

I had a lot of errands to run today. Tomorrow is a coworkers birthday, and I'm in charge of decorating her desk. I drove all over town looking for decorations that weren't child themed. Then, I had to get her a gift. Gift cards are the best invention ever. I also had to pick up Valentine's cards to mail to my nieces and nephews. Kids love mail! I was so tired by the end of all that, oh, and it's rained all day. I came home and crawled under the electric blanket and ate lunch in bed.

I'm still in bed resting, my legs really hurt. Oh, and when I picked up the Valentines cards, I also grabbed a yoga mat so I can hopefully start doing some stretching at home.

Dear Treadmill, We're Over. It's Not You, It's Me....and RA/OA

Xeljanz is really helping and has changed how I have felt the past few months. My fatigue has also improved, but I still have those days that I find myself falling asleep driving home from work. My rheumy explained the difference between active RA pain, fibromyalgia pain and damage pain. Knowing the difference helps to understand how to treat the pain. I think most of my pain these days is damage pain, but it's also followed by fibo pain.

I wanted to take advantage of my good days. I have recently restarted the gym. I have put no pressure on myself, and have not set any goals. My main focus is to get my body moving. Last weekend was the first time, going with my brother helped break me in. I wasn't able to go all week because I had a migraine that lasted FOUR days. I went again today. I know that the treadmill is bad on the knees, but it feels good to walk. Then, I had the bright idea to jog. I could literally feel my knees banging against each other. Such a bad idea. I wanted to cry because I couldn't do it, and because of the pain. I'm laying in bed now with the heating blanket on high, in pain still.

My knees have a lot of damage and that's usually what hurts me the most. On Wednesdays, I'm on my feet all day. Like clockwork, Thursdays are filled with pain and swollen ankles. I mentioned this to my rheumy. She suggested I wear a knee brace when I have to be on my feet. It actually made such a difference.